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A month before she died, the acclaimed dialect coach Joan Washington recorded a poem to be played on her daughter’s wedding day. Washington died on 2 September 2021 from lung cancer, concluding a 38-year marriage to the actor and diarist Richard E Grant. Olivia, the couple’s daughter, celebrated her marriage this past September at the house Grant and Washington shared in London. Grant wore an elegant tuxedo, his blue eyes startling, and the house was swollen with flowers. His speech included “all the things a father says. You want it to be as humorous and as heartfelt as possible, in that combination, so people aren’t stabbing themselves with their forks.” But the family couldn’t bring themselves to play Washington’s recording: “It would have wiped everybody out.” The event, with Washington absent, was bittersweet. “That’s the brutal bit,” Grant goes on. “You so want to share that with her,” and then, referring to Olivia, “Not having her mum there…” He trails off.
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Grant and I are meeting at a hotel in Richmond, a brisk uphill walk from his home. He has arrived punctually, impeccably clothed and groomed, with a watch on each wrist, his dark hair greying slightly now at 67 years old. Olivia’s celebrations are fresh in his memory. In the end, someone close to the family read Washington’s selected poem. Olivia was supported by, among others, three women in the congregation, all good friends of Grant’s, who have “appointed themselves her fairy godmothers, like something from Sleeping Beauty.” The thought seems to cheer him. “They took her to buy her wedding dress. They took her to lunch. They’ve offered themselves up as mother mentors…” He shrugs in astonishment.
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I ask who they are.
“Oh, I can’t tell you that,” he says. “It will sound name-droppy.”
This is at odds with the man I was expecting to meet. Grant has been one of the UK’s best-loved actors since 1987, when he appeared as a perpetually drunk out-of-work actor in Withnail and I. But since Washington’s death he has become almost as well-known for sharing, with remarkable candour, across Instagram and in his diaries, his experience of bereavement and grief. Last year he published A Pocketful of Happiness, a memoir that charts Washington’s illness. The book is named for an instruction Washington gave to Grant while she was unwell: to look for moments of joy in the everyday, a sudden downpour, the changing of the seasons, the ability to run gleefully alongside a river. In it are the gritty, sometimes banal details of terminal illness: the scans, the diagnoses, the sharing of diagnoses with friends, the slow and desperate descent into loss. And yet mixed with all the bad news is Grant’s other life, that of an actor still active in Hollywood, taking meetings, conducting an impromptu Oscar campaign, having dinner with well-known friends. The book is as name-droppy as a celebrity diary could get, in exactly the way readers would hope for. And it, too, is bittersweet.
In person, Grant is charming and strikingly open and quick to laugh – entertaining company, even while discussing loss.
I ask how his grief has changed over the past three years.
“I suppose you get used to the unreality of not having that person there,” he says. “What I’ve found so difficult is not having her to download to, to download everything that has happened in my day.” When Washington was becoming ill, beginning to prefer solitude over parties, Grant began to feel increasingly isolated. A psychotherapist suggested he was suffering withdrawal symptoms – the illness was slowly extracting Washington from his life. “This platitude that ‘time heals’…” he goes on, but the thought seems to vanish briefly. “I don’t think it does. I think you navigate your way around it. You never get over it. And I’m not actively trying to get over it, either.”
I ask what has helped.
“I write to her every night,” he says. “What do you write?” I ask. “Everything,” he says. “Stuff I know would amuse her.” He looks at me steadily. “I’ll describe what you look like. What you’re wearing. How old you are. Do you have kids. All of that. She would want to know what your accent is, because that was her specialty. She would ask, ‘What did Alex sound like? What is the shape of his mouth? Does it open when he talks?'”
The questions hang between us for a moment.
I have no spiritual or religious delusion that I’m ever going to get a reply. But after 38 years of marriage, I can hear what her response would be. It feels as close a connection as I can have. And I’ve found it very hopeful, that at the end of the day I’m having a conversation.
Grant and Washington met in 1983, when he, a mostly out-of-work actor, convinced her, an established professional, to give him private dialect lessons despite not having enough money. Washington agreed, a little reluctantly, and from there they remained together. Grant has written that his marriage is “the story of my adult life” and that “we began a conversation in 1983 and we never stopped.” When I bring this up he says, “Well, it officially ended,” and then: “The ongoing conversation is now in written form.” Grant believes discussion was the bedrock of his marriage. “The physical intimacy…” he begins. “Even if you’re in five hours of tantric sex with someone, it’s relative to the amount of time in your day – it’s a very small amount of time. Most of your life with somebody is spent in the intimacy of conversation. When you share absolutely everything with another human being, who sees you completely for who you are, to me that is unquantifiable.”
Washington sometimes described Grant’s later career as “the condiment-ary years” – if a film was a roast, he would be the mustard, meant to complement the dish. This idea seems to diminish his ability and range as an actor: he was Oscar-nominated in 2019 for Can You Ever Forgive Me; he stole the show in Emerald Fennell’s Saltburn; he has appeared in some of the UK’s greatest comedies and dramas and comedy-dramas, including How To Get Ahead in Advertising (1989), in which he sometimes wears on his neck a boil in the shape of a second face.
But Grant agrees with Washington’s analysis. “The way my career has gone, the majority of things I’ve done have been supporting roles, which puts you very much in the flavour department,” he says. This is true of Grant’s latest project, The Franchise, a TV series in which he plays a poison-tongued actor making his way through the filming of a superhero movie – a role perfect in its intermittent impact. When we meet, Grant has yet to see a finished episode. But he trusts its writers, Armando Iannucci and Jon Browne, and the series director, Sam Mendes, none of whom he’d worked with previously. “I’d met Sam before. And Armando. But meeting them and getting a job are two separate things,” he says.
I ask what he’s looking forward to about the show.
“The opportunity to play someone who is a total lush and a total buffoon, and also quite clever,” he says. “He’s a combination of all the things I’ve played before. It’s quite a rich, juicy role.”
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I ask about the experience of playing a character so closely based on himself.
“It’s been lovely,” he says. “I’ve had a lot of fun playing him. I think the audience will enjoy him. He’s a bit of a part of me, of course. But I also wanted to explore the comedy in him, to show him as a sort of buffoon, and also to show the vulnerability. He’s a very damaged person, and I think that’s where the interesting work is.”
Grant’s father Henrik was Swaziland’s head of education. His mother was a homemaker. Grant describes his upbringing as “unrestricted.” Among adults there was “a laxity, maybe, in the moral compass,” he says, because it felt a little like everyone was on holiday. He describes the expat life as centring on “the three ‘B’s: boredom, booze, and bonking.” When Grant was 10, he awoke from a nap to find his mother having sex with his father’s best friend – they were all together in a car. “Saw my mother bonking,” is how he puts it to me. Grant kept the discovery to himself. When the pressure of his silence became too much, he let the secret spill out into the diary he has kept ever since.
A year later, Grant’s parents divorced. He sided with his father, the cuckolded party, and became estranged from his mother, who eventually moved to South Africa. Soon afterward, Grant’s father fell into alcoholism, and he became verbally and physically abusive. “My father hadn’t been a heavy drinker before then, but once she left, he drank a bottle of Johnnie Walker scotch daily until he died – the next 30 years,” he says. At work, Grant’s father would be “charming, erudite, funny, a very engaged person.” At home he would become “an unrecognizable monster.”
Grant believes that his childhood ended when his parents divorced, when he was 11. “I was having to parent my parent,” he says, “on a nightly basis.”
I ask what that involved, exactly.
“Trying to get him into bed. Getting out of the way when he got violent. Answering the phone and lying to people. Saying, ‘Oh, he’s in the bath’ or ‘He’s not back from work’ or ‘He’s gone out.'”
Once, Grant had the idea to fix his father’s alcoholism by pouring his drink – 12 or so bottles of scotch – down the drain. His father walked in on the attempt and brought a gun to the back of Grant’s head. Grant ducked and escaped into the garden, where his father eventually found him, and took a shot. The bullet missed, only because, Grant thinks, his father was already drunk.
While Grant recalls this story he seems unfazed. “It was the one and only time he had a gun to my head,” he says. “And I think that night was a kind of watershed moment for him.” His father had remarried by this time, and Grant believes his stepmother removed the gun from the home. “But the drinking continued.”
When I call these events abuse, he smiles, and I ask why.
“Because it’s so long ago now. And if you know that as the norm of your adolescence… It’s relative to somebody who’s been held in a cellar for 10 years and impregnated by an incestuous father. What I had is not that.”
I ask if the word “abuse” seems overblown.
“No,” he says. “But I think it has become a word that in the current conversation is applied to everything. Somebody can say a maître d’ has been abusive towards me, my boss has been abusive. There are so many variations.”
In his diaries, Grant writes with great fondness about his father. He recalls watching his name appear on the end credits of Withnail and I and feeling the overwhelming desire for his father to have witnessed his success. His father, who once described Grant as “an overwound clock” because of his remarkable energy, had worried his son was escaping Swaziland to “live a life wearing makeup and tights and narrowly avoiding buggery,” Grant says. “His abiding terror was that I would become destitute.”
He goes on, “I loved and adored him. Who he became when he was drunk was not who he was. If he’d been like that all day long, I would have run away. But he was so filled with remorse, it was clear that the alcoholism was something he had difficulty controlling.”
Grant supported him until he died, in 1981. “He had been cuckolded and robbed. And I saw first-hand the cost of what that did to him.” On his deathbed, his father had whispered, “I’ve never stopped loving your mother.”
In 1999, aged 42, Grant experienced a kind of nervous breakdown. “I was angry and unhappy with my life and career,” he has written, and “became convinced I was paralysed.” Worried for her husband, Washington called Steve Martin, a longtime friend, who passed on the name of an analyst who convinced Grant to reconcile with his mother. “It took 18 months,” he says, “but we had a conversation in which she finally said three magic words: ‘Please forgive me.’ It was the first time Grant had revealed to his mother what he had witnessed in the car. “And she cried, which I’d never seen her do before.” The conversation was the “greatest epiphany” of Grant’s life. “I went from holding on to resentment and anger towards someone to forgiving them, and all of the pain shifted instantaneously.”
Around this time, Grant came to the conclusion that all secrets are toxic, and that laying bare his life could become a therapeutic act. “My thinking went, if you’re open about everything, it can feel like protection. What can somebody say to you? What’s the worst that can happen? You can’t be wrongfooted. If somebody’s going to take a pot-shot at you, you think, ‘Well, OK, go ahead, I’m not hiding anything.'”
I ask if he has any regrets about publishing his diaries.
“I don’t.” He pauses, then adds, “Perhaps not yet. I think it’s been very therapeutic. And it’s been nice to share this with people, to think that they might be able to relate to it, that it might be helpful to them.”
The Franchise starts on Monday on Sky Comedy and NOW.
Conclusion:
This article is a testament to Richard E. Grant’s open and honest approach to discussing his life, including his struggles with grief, abuse, and his lonesome experience as a young boy. His writing has been praised for its candor and his ability to share his experiences in a way that resonates with others. Grant’s story serves as a reminder that even in the darkest of times, there is always hope and the possibility for healing and growth.
FAQs:
Q: What is the title of Richard E. Grant’s latest project?
A: The Franchise, a TV series in which he plays a poison-tongued actor making his way through the filming of a superhero movie.
Q: What is the title of Richard E. Grant’s memoir?
A: A Pocketful of Happiness, which chronicles the illness and death of
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